Perfectly Imperfect

Life is crazy, stressful, hard, unexpected, under appreciated and absolutely completely beautiful. Sometimes I get caught up in what I think I need or deserve. I find myself disappointed and upset. But then I stop and realize I have everything I need, and more. Life isn't about what you go through. It's about how you come out of it. You are going to fall down, get back up just to fall down again. Sometimes people can pull you right back up, and the ones who love you will. But sometimes its not about who picks you up, sometimes its about who is willing to lay down next to you and just cry. Either way, life is made up of experiences, which are made up of memories, which only mean as much as the person you shared them with. Life is so perfectly imperfect because you can fall down, mess up or succeed your wildest expectations. Whether your failing miserably or on top of the world you have the ability to be happy and enjoy every moment of it. Why? Because whether your on the ground crying or laughing with joy, its about who your with. Life is imperfect. It's the people you share it with that make it perfect.

What Inspires Me.

I am inspired by...

1.Love.
2.People who turn nothing into everything.
3.The stars.
4.Accomplishing something everyone said was impossible.
5.Old people still in love.
6.My Daddy.
7.Seeing someone stand up and finish.
8.Rainbows.
9.Cancer Survivors.
10.The sun rise.
11.Tears.
12.Nature.
13.The Ocean.
14.Little Kids.
15.The words I LOVE YOU.
16.Seeing someone attempt the impossible.
17.My friends and family.
18.Weddings.
19.Moms.
20.Siblings who look out for each other.
21.Friends who become family.
22.Seeing a guy buy flowers.
23.Morgan David Nye.
24.Seeing people come together for a common cause.
25. YOU.

FOREVER.

Forever. Eternally. Without ever ending. Always. In my life I have often heard people say nothing lasts forever. Looking around in the world that makes sense. It's logical to think nothing last forever when you constantly see marriages, relationships and happiness fall apart. Luckily, logic isn't all there is to life. Love, friendship and families are the three things that are for-ever. Forever is an intriguing, curious word. It suggests something doesn't end. Forever is a word full of possibilities. Full of hope and comfort. Its a word that suggests not ALL good things end. And that is why Forever is my favorite word.

Memories.

Me and my friends have this saying, "We aren't buying squirt guns we're buying memories, and you cant put a price tag on memories!" We use it as an excuse to buy just about everything. But truth is you really can't put a price tag on memories. Memories can't be bought, traded, sold or given away. But they can be cherished, shared, remembered and more valuable than any other thing. Our lives are made up of memories, after today is past, it becomes only a memory and without memories life would be nothing, literally. Memories are the most wonderful thing in the world. They are what you look back on for comfort during hard times, what you look to for guidance when making decision, they are who you are, how you lived and what meant the most to you. There's a reason after someone passes people gather to share memories. We are all made up of memories, so every memory is a piece of us. Which is why they are so comforting to hold on to when someone you love has passed. So hold on to the memories you have, cherish them with all your heart, and every minute of every day make a memory worth holding on to.

It only takes a single moment

You know those times when everything is going wrong, but then that one thing goes right that makes it all worth it, thats what I live for.

Everyone has those days when nothing is going right and you just want to sit down and cry. For some people its more than a day, maybe a week, or a month, or an entire lifetime. It seems as though once one thing goes wrong, everything else comes crashing down as well. Nothing is worse than to have your whole world come falling on your head. Which at one point or another happens to everyone. So why in the world do we put our selfs through such hurt and pain, why do we allow ourselfs to have any sort of life to make us miserable? Because, if you are like me, a single look, a simple hug or a stranger saying hi makes it all worth it. It only takes a single moment to make everything alright. And those moments are what you and me live for.

The More Love the More Power

I have often been told the more you love someone the greater power they have to hurt you. I have recently discovered however the more you love someone the more willing you will be to forgive them. A lot has happened in the last few months and a lot of people have been hurt around me. We sat down to talk about it and it was a very confrontational converstation I hope to never have again. However, from this experience I have learned many things. Including why I am so hurt. I hurt because I care. It seems ridiculous that because you love someone you hurt. But isn't that what love and relationships are all about? Willing to hurt in order to love. Sounds crazy huh? As we sat there a lot of things ran through my mind as I looked across the room to see people who just months before were the ones sitting beside me backing me up and comforting me, not across from me calling me out or making me cry. People we dont care about have no ability to hurt us or make us cry, it's the people we love that do that to us. As I walked out, crying someone followed. Someone I used to trust, not to make me cry or let anyone else either. Looking at her and what we have lost made tears swell up in my eyes, and those tears and emotions are what allowed her to comfort me, chase after what we used to have and ultimately get it back. Yes those we love hurt us, they make us cry and often we never want to forgive them. But those same people are the ones who then pull us back together and we come out with an even stronger relationship. Those hurt feelings, tears and angry words are ultimately what builds up a relationship.

Love

Being in love is hard, because you risk being in pain when you fall out of love, loving is even harder, because you risk loosing who you love, but being loved is the hardest, because you risk being the pain someday, someone will feel when they lose you. After losing so many people I've loved, one thought that keeps coming back is will someone feel as horrible as I do when they lose me? Loss is the worst feeling, emotion that exists, and i never want the people I love to have to feel it because they loved me back. But, do you risk putting people you care so deeply about, through such horrible pain and let them love you back, or do you block them out, and not ever be loved again?