Why wait?

Why is it we can hate someone one minute, but the second they are gone you wish you could have told them how much you loved them? To hate, you must care, but to care you must love. You don't pick up the phone to call a friend, you are too proud to say your sorry, you refuse to forgive and yet when something happens, threatening to take them away you are right there to call, apologize and forgive. Why does it take cancer, a heart attack or even death before you say the words "I love you?" You think about them, you wonder where they are, who they are, if there thinking about you, but you don't have enough time to drop by or call. I know from experience the worst feeling in the world is wondering if they know you love them. Whether death or time between you, why wait?

If happiness is a destination, who is YOUR tour guide?

So, I was thinking about where I want to be in ten years. And as unsure of the future as I am I know one thing for sure, I want to be Happy. So then I started to think about how to make sure that every tomorrow I am happy. So if happiness is my desired destination, who can I rely on to be my tour guide? Whether you are christian or atheist, a believer or a nonbeliever can you really reach that destination alone? Can you be your own tour guide to end up somewhere you have never been? How do you give someone directions to a place you have never even seen? And if you are already contradicting me, have you been in tomorrow? So then I ask, who has? And i get the simple answer no one. So how do you rely on someone to guide you somewhere no man has ever been-the future? Your today could be another mans tomorrow, but can your today ever be another man's yesterday? So how is it that at 15 I am suppose to reach my destination of happiness when neither myself nor anyone else has ever been there?